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Old May 20th, 2019, 09:29 PM #2221
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Well I had my surgery last week. Ih ave had multiple wound center visits. Doing pretty well actually. Can't sit for long periods but hey I can lay down which is the worst part. I gotta carry a wound vac machine with me to help with healing.
Get well soon, man.
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Old June 2nd, 2019, 12:17 PM #2222
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DAMN IT!...I feel like jumping off a cliff right now...I know that compared to a lot of other things this might seem really minor, but...I could honestly cry right now.
For years I've been dreaming of seeing a Sentai Stage Show in Tokyo Dome City. When I went there 5 years ago our schedule was super tight and I had to choose between seeing a show or taking my dad to a place he wanted to see...So I didn't want to be an asshole and I just said that we should go to the place dad wanted.
And now that I'm finally going to Japan again, it would seem that they will only be having a Sentai Stage Show during only 6 days in June...and the last one is a day before I arrive... All the other months have a ton more, but June...nope...and I so wanted to see one. And I couldn't even predict this because the June schedule wasn't up when I bought my plane ticket...
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For years I've been dreaming of seeing a Sentai Stage Show in Tokyo Dome City. When I went there 5 years ago our schedule was super tight and I had to choose between seeing a show or taking my dad to a place he wanted to see...So I didn't want to be an asshole and I just said that we should go to the place dad wanted.
And now that I'm finally going to Japan again, it would seem that they will only be having a Sentai Stage Show during only 6 days in June...and the last one is a day before I arrive... All the other months have a ton more, but June...nope...and I so wanted to see one. And I couldn't even predict this because the June schedule wasn't up when I bought my plane ticket...
The solution is simple, move to Japan. LOL

The upside is that there will always be another Sentai stage show. This was already your second shot, you'll get a third. Don't worry.


In a more helpful breath, is there any kind of way you could exchange your ticket for an advance flight?
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The solution is simple, move to Japan. LOL
I'm considering it But I guess I really need to learn proper Japanese first. Stuff you learned from Toku can only get you this far. But hey, if I could teach my university courses over there, I'd jump at the chance.

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In a more helpful breath, is there any kind of way you could exchange your ticket for an advance flight?
There is, but at about 200 Euro more it's...not an option really...

I guess I'll make the best of it...There's still the Toei Museum...right?
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Old June 2nd, 2019, 02:09 PM #2225
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There's still the Toei Museum...right?
Hell. Yes.

That's my first stop if I ever get to Japan. Not the hotel, not the bathroom, the TOEI museum!
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Had a mishap with a ceramic Cuisinart paring knife yesterday, which I tried to wipe butter residue off of with a paper towel. Long in a short: I sliced my left thumb, and had to get a stitch to close the wound (which, despite being wrapped with gauze and a pad, didn't heal at all overnight and was in fact still bleeding when the wrap was changed this morning). So....yeah. That was the opposite of fun.
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Had a mishap with a ceramic Cuisinart paring knife yesterday, which I tried to wipe butter residue off of with a paper towel. Long in a short: I sliced my left thumb, and had to get a stitch to close the wound (which, despite being wrapped with gauze and a pad, didn't heal at all overnight and was in fact still bleeding when the wrap was changed this morning). So....yeah. That was the opposite of fun.
Damn, dude.

I hope you're doing okay now.
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Old June 6th, 2019, 02:23 PM #2228
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Damn, dude.

I hope you're doing okay now.
Apart from the throbbing pain in my thumb and having to take antibiotics, I'm fine. Oh, and I have to change the gauze wrap twice a day.
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Old June 10th, 2019, 12:47 AM #2229
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Hey, crew!! I normally don't do this, but I do need more perspective on this. I'd rather put this here than in VIP.

Last month, I was at a funeral for a long-time family friend and witnessed her niece and her niece's husband not thrilled to be there. I understand this ruined the husband's family plans as the funeral was on a Friday and they elected to stay there for the long weekend rather than go about their plan (her decision, I assume). It's been on my mind ever since and neither are on here much nor will talk about it. Am I wrong for thinking about it or is it OK to feel angry and concerned? It's hard watching grown adults act this way, especially one you've known since kindergarten and never see much.

I also admit I have made some poor decisions about it lately. For example, they have a joint account; so it's hard expressing your feelings without having the wrong person see it. Plus; for whatever reason, I installed an Android emulator, faked my location and played some hardcore breakup/comfort songs. No one told me there was a UFC PPV on Saturday night... oops!! I have reached out to some mutual friends who have given advice at least. There's always another explanation to "radio silence" on here. Marc has deactivated from time to time, for example.

I'm feeling somewhat better about the whole thing, but still needed to vent. So thank you. And advice or chastising for my conduct is appreciated. I know I've made some poor decisions.
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Old June 10th, 2019, 10:35 AM #2230
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Am I wrong for thinking about it or is it OK to feel angry and concerned?
To a point, sure. Obviously we don't want anyone harboring resentment because someone else's life hindered what they were going to do, but at the same time we can't expect everyone to feel the same way we feel about everything.

Ultimately, it just sounds like you miss them. It's okay to tell people that, then they don't get so mad at your behavior. Are they RangerBoard members? That's how your post made it sound.
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Old June 10th, 2019, 01:54 PM #2231
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To a point, sure. Obviously we don't want anyone harboring resentment because someone else's life hindered what they were going to do, but at the same time we can't expect everyone to feel the same way we feel about everything.

Ultimately, it just sounds like you miss them. It's okay to tell people that, then they don't get so mad at your behavior. Are they RangerBoard members? That's how your post made it sound.
Hey, Primo!! You answered my post about this in the Random Thread a few weeks ago, so thanks for speaking up again.

The bigger issue is this has happened to me twice. So it's natural to be mad, but I shouldn't let it consume me or make me do things I will regret if I get caught. Grief does bring out the worst in some people and not everyone does well in crowd situations. I feel like the last part is silly since he's the lead singer in a band with his brothers.

I do miss them; the wife especially. No, there are no feelings there. We're friends; nothing more. The silence on FB is the worst part. Not everyone needs to post their whole life on there, but replying to messages would be nice. No; they're not on here or or I wouldn't have posted this.
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Old June 10th, 2019, 06:45 PM #2232
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I do miss them; the wife especially. No, there are no feelings there. We're friends; nothing more. The silence on FB is the worst part. Not everyone needs to post their whole life on there, but replying to messages would be nice.
I think this is kinda the same thing Dyl went through with a friend of his.

Like I told him, you speak from your heart and say exactly what you need from the friendship, but there sometimes comes a day where that other person just simply may not be able to give it back, and that's okay. Especially when they're married, their primary commitment is to each other and that takes on a whole new dimension.

This may also signal a need for you to expand your own horizons, fulfilling yourself to where their absence doesn't affect you so greatly.
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Old June 11th, 2019, 08:56 AM #2233
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Yes, their primary commitment is to each other and it's not really any of my business what they're going through. If/when she's ready to talk, then good. Otherwise, I need to leave it alone. Oh, I have plenty of friends. Just that it sucks when someone is going through this. I'm doing better than I was; that's for sure!!
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Old June 11th, 2019, 09:28 AM #2234
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Hi, my name is Chuck, i am a child hood sexual abuse survivor. i suffer from ptsd, bi - polar disorder, massive depressive disorder, and crippling anxiety as well as neuropothy in both my legs from knees down .

my Narcissist father destroyed my life, i was an honor roll student but nothing was ever good enough for him, hed beat me for getting 1 wrong on a test, for an imagined slight or just because the giants lost.


while i was in high school dealing with my illnesses with no meds because my parents wouldnt let me go to a doctor, my father quit his job and never got another, we lost our home and i was couch surfing my senior year and missed a ton of school (my hs was on the outskirts of another town,( the town i live in didnt have a highschool of its own so we were shipped to one 2 towns away.)till we got a place for 3 months, during which he relapsed in his alcoholism and came flying through our living room window and started beating me in my sleep.


my english teacher who knew about everything i went through failed me for being absent too much even though my grades were good so i dont have a high school diploma despite completing enough credits and all 4 years of school.


i'm on my last legs, and don't know how much more i can take. i was so afraid of letting people touch me growing up that i made excuses not to get into relationships, now i crave love so badly and i have noone.

my friends all ditched me when my anxiety and depression got really bad, see everyone knew me as the performing fun loving magician but noone cared about the guy underneath and would leave when i opened up.

i was making good strides, getting out of my house more but i've recently had a lot of set backs and i'm breaking down.

in the last 2 months i got involved with 1 girl i used to be friends with, we were just talking and talking about hanging out and then she just ghosted me, i think a mutual friend i opened up to about my assualt and conditions told her to stay away from me. then these last few weeks i met another girl, who also suffered from bi - polar and anxiety, we hit it off and things were going well. wed face time for hours, id talk to her till she fell asleep, shed call first thing when i woke up.

we actually went out once and had a great time. it was only 2 weeks but for the first time ever i felt wanted, she even complimented my looks which i'm not very confident in, down to liking my crooked broken smile(i have messed up teeth from my medication gabapentin)

then she got back with her ex, but was still calling me, started sending me porn and really messing with my head, then she dumped him again and called me to vent for an hour, then that night went back to his house, but called me to talk to me all the way their. i had since told her i had developed feelings for her. i also tend to develop feelings too hard and fast and wish i didn't but i cant control it. my few friends i have online told me to block her that she is messing with me and is toxic for me but i'm addicted to the affection. i told her i cant be her emotional crutch for her relationship with another guy yesterday and we haven't talked since. she kept trying to contact me but i went no contact with her to keep my sanity.

on top of all this i'm dealing with my mom fighting cancer, losing my insurance(they don't know why it got canceled,but i had to wait 3 months with no meds to get it reinstated on june 1st) being without most of my meds, in a ton of pain from the neuropothy and having my 1 irl friend i still had avoiding me because i told him about how someone brought bed bugs to the motel i live in(another long story) that i've been suffering a fight against.

theres even more, but my life is in disrepair and it seems like every step i make forward pulls me backward. my parents steal my mail, i am expecting a package from a disability lawyer but they probaby took it.




my father is a narc, he tried to convince me to kill myself 3 years ago so i would in his words un burden the family, i live in a sh*tty hotel room infested with bed bugs and no ac. i opened up to the 1 friend i had about it in feb and he hasnt hung out with me since, i dont completely blame him but im back to never leaving my house again and just stuck by myself miserable.
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Sorry to hear people cut you out when you tried to share your issues, and that you're having it rough. The fact you didn't listen to your father shows how much stronger you are than him and can rise above his petty opinion of you, that's a good start. I hope your mom beats the cancer. Wish I could help further, but hopefully some words of encouragement are enough for you for now.
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i'm on my last legs, and don't know how much more i can take. i was so afraid of letting people touch me growing up that i made excuses not to get into relationships, now i crave love so badly and i have noone.
You have it here. I may not know you, I may not be near you, but I love you.

There is no way you should be expected to hold yourself together through even ONE of the issues you've experienced, let alone the totality of them. But the fact that you recognize what it has done to you gives you incredible room for growth and hope for the future. That's the bottom line, that we don't know what comes next no matter how much we've seen to assume.

Multiple people have let you down and that's their problem, now you know what to watch out for. But don't let it poison you either, there is no way you can improve your life standing without serious help. Reach out often and reach out everywhere you can possibly think of. There are organizations that exist purely to get people on their feet, and you are more than worthy of that assistance.

And any further venting you need to do, you bring it all to us and we will always hear you out. It's surprising how much just getting your issues out of your own head, without being judged will help you. And we won't stop taking interest until you're living your dream life, do you hear me? <3
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You have it here. I may not know you, I may not be near you, but I love you.

There is no way you should be expected to hold yourself together through even ONE of the issues you've experienced, let alone the totality of them. But the fact that you recognize what it has done to you gives you incredible room for growth and hope for the future. That's the bottom line, that we don't know what comes next no matter how much we've seen to assume.

Multiple people have let you down and that's their problem, now you know what to watch out for. But don't let it poison you either, there is no way you can improve your life standing without serious help. Reach out often and reach out everywhere you can possibly think of. There are organizations that exist purely to get people on their feet, and you are more than worthy of that assistance.

And any further venting you need to do, you bring it all to us and we will always hear you out. It's surprising how much just getting your issues out of your own head, without being judged will help you. And we won't stop taking interest until you're living your dream life, do you hear me? <3
Thanks it means alot, im trying to get a therapist to help me, but im not in a great mind set as of late. on the plus side i fell back into kamen rider with XI-O, hadnt watched a series as it aired since wizard i think.
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im trying to get a therapist to help me, but im not in a great mind set as of late.
It takes time.

Just take things day by day, it WILL improve eventually.


on the plus side i fell back into kamen rider with XI-O, hadnt watched a series as it aired since wizard i think.
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Hard to believe it's already been a week since I gashed my thumb with that paring knife....

Anyway. New day, new rant. Yesterday, my mom mentioned that she'd be going to my grandmother's to house-sit today so my aunt (who's there 24/7 to take care of my grandmother, not to mention their two dogs) could have a day to herself, out of the house. Well, at complete random last night....probably around 9:50 PM, my aunt called and said she wasn't going, so we didn't have to go. All I know about the reason for this (via my mom not using her indoor voice during a phone call) is that "she didn't want to go"....since she was talking to that same aunt who was supposed to get a day off today, I can only assume she meant my grandmother didn't want my aunt to have a day off.

......so, yeah. That's the situation regarding that, thus far.
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All I know about the reason for this (via my mom not using her indoor voice during a phone call) is that "she didn't want to go"....since she was talking to that same aunt who was supposed to get a day off today, I can only assume she meant my grandmother didn't want my aunt to have a day off.
Eh, she's not the boss of anybody, plans change and people rethink. Doesn't HAVE to be sinister every time.
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